My New Years Resolution

During the year 2012, I want to drink 8 glasses of water a day, pray all my prayers 5 times a day, and lose 15 pounds before my 15th Birthday. But my actual technical New Year's Resolution is to "Increase my self-esteem and love myself for who I am and forget about the haters".

Peace and Chicken Grease

It's All About Me

So I did my hair and make-up today and boy did I see something special. I looked VERY pretty. I almost couldn't believe it was me in the mirror. I think I'm going to do this more often. Smooches!

Lesson #43 of Life

#43

A life is an opportunity to better yourself for the plans God has in the Afterlife. Have a GREAT day!

Lesson #44 of Life

#44-

When life gives you lemons, suspect somethings wrong because LIFE doesn't give you a daggone thing; God gives it ALL to you. Have a GREAT day!

Can you see the differences in these boxes?

They are the same brand and flavor, but one picture has more greens. One picture is dry the other is wet. Hmm. Makes you really think about the things you're eating.

Oh Allah!

I pray to the Lord Almighty that one day there will be eternal peace. That we can all come to a conclusion and be okay with each other. I pray, Oh Allah!, grant me paradise, save me from the fire, and forgive me of all my sins. Oh Allah! guide me to the straight way. Ameen!

What I Think About the "Real Housewives"

First of all, the MAJORITY of them from all the cities ARE NOT EVEN MARRIED! Like, how in this world are you a "real housewife" if your not married. Most of the women on those shows are the prime example of ratchet. Boy, it's real unfortunate that America has come to a state where fake, ghetto, "rich" women have a show. Sigh. But I have to admit, their stupidity is entertaining.

Lesson #45 of Life

#45-

The REAL definition of Self-Esteem:

1. Self- love: the love of one's self

2. Self- value: the value and care on one's self

3. Self- betterment: the belief that you are great but you may need to better some things

4. Self- worth: the belief that your body is worthy of anything POSITIVE

5. Self- inner beauty: belief that beauty is WITHIN you

Have a GREAT day!

So Today...

So today I was looking at some videos on YouTube posted by a woman named Glozell. She was very funny, but she got me to thinking. If she is comfortable enough with herself to be herself and have thousands of people watch her, why can't I be comfortable with a measly couple of people paying slight attention to me and the things I do. It made me think that maybe, just maybe people were not always thinking about, or looking at me. Maybe I AM the only so conscious about the things I do. If I look deep into myself and focus on other things besides MYSELF, maybe I won't be so paranoid. Also, once I outwardly show that I love and accept myself for who I am, then it will be easier for others to accept me.

I was also thinking about the true meaning of jealousy. For a long time I perceived it to mean someone hating you because of something you have that they don't. Now I believe that true jealousy is when someone loves an attribute of yours and wishes that they could have such an attribute as well. This person also wants your acceptance because they look up to you and find the things you do be something they enjoy. So, I have always had problems with girls in ALL my schools. I just didn't understand why they didn't like me. Then, when I came to the school that I currently attend, I realized that the girls were jealous of my beauty, intelligence, and maturity. At first I felt horrible because I wasn't purposefully trying to act a certain way, but as my fabulous Father told me, that is how I was BORN. So later I decided that I was going to accept myself for who I am and those who don't like it aren't meant to make any sort of importance in my life. I decided that I was going to love myself for me, flaws and all. Have a GREAT day!

Lesson #46 of Life

#46

When you embrace the good qualities and things about yourself, others will embrace you, and if they don't it is simply their loss. Have a GREAT day!

Lesson #47 of Life

#47

No matter your religious views, always try to have spiritual growth. Make sure that you are at peace with yourself and that your spirit is clear and pure. Have a GREAT day!

Lesson #48 of Life

#48

When you are given the opportunity to better yourself, take it because you never know the next time it will b e available to you. Have a GREAT day!

Update

Re: It's Been A While

Since I posted that I have moved to Atlanta, Ga and I am attending WD Mohammed High School. I moved into a HOUSE! I actually really like my school and it is not as bad as I thought it would be. My dad and his family also moved to Georgia. I think this move was from God as a lesson. Sometimes you have to do things you don't want to do, but they are ways of learning. Also, living down here I felt a bigger sense of the word family. At my school everyone is close with EVERYONE. I love that. I can't tell you how many mothers, sisters, and brothers I now have. I love that. At my school, alot of the people who attend it get married to somebody from the High or Middle School. I'm not opposed to that, but it isn't necessarily my first choice. I'm not sure if I want to be married to someone I went to school with, but then again it may be ideal. Now, onto the city. Its really nice and everything, but the racism is....not to my liking. Thank goodness for family. More updates shortly! Have a GREAT day!

Lesson #49 of Life

#49

You, as you are have the ability to achieve GREAT things. You may need to change a few things, but you are still capable of achieving things. So as a friend of my once said "Keep trying & Keep it truck'n"!!!

Lesson #50 of Life

#50-

Little things that don't matter shouldn't bring you down. The littlest things that are negatively charged should just simply be gotten rid of. Have a GREAT day!

Intro to Lessons of Life

As much as possible, I am going to try to post 50 lessons I believe must be learned. I'm starting.....NOW!!! (In my next post).

It's Been A While

It's been a while since I have posted anything. Many changes are happening in my life. First of all I'm moving to Atlanta,GA. I am not excited about that AT ALL. I do not like change at all. I'm trying to think of any pros of mving to Atlanta, but I can't think of any. I wish evertything would jsut stay the same. I'm expected to be going to Warith Deen Mohamed High School. I guess one pro is going to a school with muslims. The only problem with that is that there are only 80 high schoolers. The school I go to now has over a thousand 8th Graders. That is goin to be a complete change. Another con will be that I will have to ride Public Transprtation to and from school. I'm a little scared abouth that. I wish my Mother would understand the harship she's putting her daughter through. I'm going to have to leave my family. The family I have known my ENITRE life. Also, were moving in to an apartment. I dont want to live in such cramped quarters. But then again I guess this will be a pro financially. But still, starting over sucks. When I haave a family I going to try to make my childrens life as easy and as pleasurable as possible. I hate the idea of having to do this to my own kids.
My cousin Alana* is going to move to Atlanta,too. I guess that could be considred as a pro. I hope that in the end I will end up happy. Becuase I havent been happy in a LONG time. That all for now folks!

*Name has been changed for privacy.

New Decisions

I'm very sure I'm over all the drama that goes on in my life. I'm hereby deciding to change myself for my own good. I'm done worrying about the wrong people and things. I need to realize that majority of the things I worry about now won't benefit me in the long run. I need to do what is best for me. I must stop worrying about the acceptance of people and just be true to myself. I need to recognize which side my bread is buttered. I'm going to limit the amount of people I surround myself with. Also, I need to pay close to attention to those who have my best interest at heart. I need to notice those who want whats best for me. I need to evaluate my life altogether. MY HATERS ARE MY MOTIVATORS.

Tremendous !

Never Thought That I could possibly pull together some decent tasting (and looking) friend fish. But guess what? Yours truly did!! It tastes faboo ! I'm so proud of myself !

Gratefullness

I am so grateful for all the people in this world who care about and love me. Their motivation keeps me going . I'm just one for people type motivation. And I have it. I'm grateful for all my friends for listening to me ramble on and on about nothing. I'm grateful for my family for the things they do for me.

Thoughts

Well. I was thinking about the fact that I may think just a wee bit too much. Everything that happens to me, I think too much about and end up making the wrong decision anyway. I'm not sure what the reason for this is. I'm not quite sure if I even want to know. I hate it when I think to much about things that have to do with myself. I think I may be my biggest Critic. In some ways, that is negative and positive (then again, there are pros and cons to everything). Now here I am thinking again. What about? Why the pros of cons, of course. OK... I'm done because I'm boring my own self stiff with all these thoughts.

Thoughts

Well. I have been thinking. Again. I do that a lot, not sure why though. I should look into that. Ok Ive now lost my train of thought. Shall post when it comes back to me.

Welcome Thoughts

I'm not quite sure what I'm going to blog about, but I think I'll just blog about whatever comes to my mind. Wow. That means this will be a long blog. Can a blog be long? Oh well, this one will be. I find that I think alot. I think I just have to much free time.